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In which much is revealed and nothing at all

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'For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."'  Jeremiah 29:11

Five years ago this month our family moved into our Ingleside.  It was the house that we had built on a half acre section in our hometown of Inglewood, Taranaki.

We had been living in our little house of dreams where we had experienced love joy and loss in plenty.  

That was our Idlewild, named after the place in the woods that Anne of Green Gables and her friend Diana Barry used to escape to.  There they would write their fanciful stories and create their imaginary dramas.  It was the place where our children first knew life and where Madeline was born.  It was a place of memories and dreams both together. 

It was tiny.  We outgrew it.

So when a dream section became available within walking distance of our Idylwild, we bought it and built our Ingleside.  Ingleside was the name of the house that Anne and Gilbert lived in after their family outgrew her little House of Dreams on the coast.  The name was fitting for our own forever home in which we  have experienced love joy and loss in plenty.

Except I have come to realise that there is no such thing as a forever home outside of Heaven.  And the time has come to move on from Ingleside.

There are a number of reasons why we have decided to move on, but we'll keep these to ourselves and to those closest to us.  And as to our plans, besides putting our house on the market, they are fluid and changing all the time but we are embracing the adventure ahead.

Is it scary?  Too right.  But I was once the newly married woman who left her home and native land to move to Christchurch New Zealand, sight unseen and with an excited gleam in her eye.  I was also the young woman who moved to Taranaki 16 1/2 years ago, again sight unseen with slightly more trepidation but an equal amount of confidence.  Have I ever looked back with regret?  Not once.  

There can be no regrets, no "if only" or "what if" when you are walking this life closely with God.  Paul and I knew clearly that it was His will for us to take those steps all those year ago and although we did not know what was ahead, we trusted His plan for us.  And His plan was and always has been the best one.  That faith has brought us through some hard times and allowed us to look ahead knowing that whatever the plan was, whatever the reason for the pain and sorrow, it was all for good.  

I rest on that faith now.  Truly rest.  Sure I will have days where I am plagued with doubt ("how on earth can we even conceive of leaving this beautiful home???") but the doubt and the fear will not change the fact that I know we are doing the right thing.  We are "launching out into the deep" and we know with certainty that it is what God has asked us to do.

There is an adventure ahead.  And I am excited.

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